I used to waste my time dreaming of being alive...

Yay! another happy post!
i mean...i have no reason to be unhappy!
he is so amazing...there are only a few boys out there like him..ive only met one other.
hes funny, smart, knows how to make me smile in a second, hes pretty cute, and is sincere!
although we've only been dating for a little over a week...i like him sooooooooooo much!
i havent been this happy in a long time! the last time i was this happy..was at animazement!
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he makes me feel like im worth something.(not to mention he gives a kickass massage!lulz)

ahhh well i cant think right now..ill add more later...it seems that its easier for my to write down my thoughts around 9pm...haha
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Wow..what a week!!!
one of the best in a LONNGGG time!!!!!
i still hate boys
but some i guess are okay...but only some!
like kevin!(and alex, and ian...and some other guys)
Kevin is just incredible! he smiles way more than most guys...he makes me laugh in a second...he treats a girl the way she should be treated...and he gives awesome hugs >.<
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yea ive kinda been down for the last few weeks...and he really cheered me up...hes so fun to be around...and i feel like i can tell him absolutely anything and everything...^.^ im just so happy right now!

IM GOING TO THE FAIR ON SATURDAY! im so excitedd!!!!! ive only been twice..when i was in the 1st grade and a couple of years ago...and hopefully darby, murphy, and ian and joanie will be able to go too!!!



for now
love,
Jillian
xxoo

so many of my friends are constantly studying...most of them are already looking at colleges (which i have yet to do) and i honestly dont think its right that teachers give us homework over the weekend (we need to make that illegal).
people tell me that i should take honors classes cause then ill be in class with them..well you know...i just cant do it...for all you dorks who think im an A-B student..im not...i just cant do it...my mom constantly talks about school with other people on the phone..and im sick of it...and just so you know i have to study twice as hard as everyone else...because i simply cant remember facts or equations or defintions.

also, i hate that certain groups of people always have parties and go out to dinner or the movies.....i never do any of that...the only "parties" i go to are sleep overs...and they get pretty old after a while...over the summer...i went to two parties...one was a birthday party...and the other was a cookout..only half the people invited showed up...and there was only one guy...and also i usually dont know half the people because they are all in marching band...which i chose not to do cause it would take up too much time..and again with school..i wouldnt be able to keep up. it saddens me that i never get invited to things...and the excuse that my parents only said a few people could come..thats bull!...lately i feel like i dont have friends...one has a boyfriend that she spends way to much time with...i mean this guy is so flipping obsessed and clingy and she doesnt see it! almost every time i call her or invite her over...he brings her..or shes on the other line with him....you tard i love her more than you so back off! shes my best friend and you know what i hope she dumps you soon...shes changed a bit...yea i love that shes happier..but come on!

finally..boys...i hate almost all of you..you dont care about anyone but yourselves. all you do is stare at girls chests...and look at our bodies...if you talk to me..look at my FACE...also all you do is brag! or blame other people for your faults..get over it and face it like a MAN..you know what else pisses me off...when you see guys hug every girl in sight...you look like a whore..so stop....and tickling! i hate that even more! its the most annoying thing in the world! for all the boys who think they are all that..go screw yourself right now! and for god sakes ACT YOUR AGE! and stop talking about sex! girls dont like that! be a gentleman...open the friggen door for a girl once in a while...they will notice it!..(well i do) and lastly...if you like a girl...come right out and say it..or at least talk to the chick...really...if you are really a man...you will go up to a girl all by yourself and start talking to her...dont assume the girl does or doesnt like you...talk to her first and ask her friends at least! us girls cant be held responsible for stuff like that..we dont know if you like us!..also...some boys tend to like a certain girl only when they cant have her..then when the girl likes the guy...he decides he doesnt like her anymore....is it payback or something for not liking you the first time..then having a boyfriend the second...but you know...maybe she liked you all the other times...but nope..you only got attention from the guy when you liked somebody else.

//end rant
Jillian

p.s. im so goddamn sore from gym...(i had to add it..to complete my rant)

jeezzzeee! i havent written in my journal since my beach trip!

welll..anywayss..so school has started...boring, annoying school...
i like a couple of my teachers..copley (believe it or not) and mr. muse...
i have a sub in math for the time being cause my real teacher had some sort of surgery and is wont be coming until the 21st...but from what ive heard..shes evil..and worse than the sub we have...(-.-)...and then im also taking gym/health this year cause i didnt take it last year...coach kelley....and unfortunately i already have this weird kid in there who likes me..hes a bit annoying..and his friend wont leave me alone either.

CHORUS!
hokay! so this year...the chorus is going to disney!...im not sure if i can go yet because the honors and boys chorus get first dibs...but if i can get a spot i can go! it sounds like an kickass trip!!! oh yes and if you would like to buy some cookie dough or cheesecakes....message me!!!...lolz!

listen to the hush sound..they will give you eargasms...yesh they are that amazing.

xoxoxo
Jillian

THE BEACH WAS A BLAST

There were/was-
Jelly Beans
boogie boarding
sand castles/droopy castles
cute boys (little boys (age 3 haha)that is..hunter and tanner..my two newest friends)
walks on the beach
talking to katies bf at 12 at night
making fun of the boys that checked us out
more jelly beans
pokemon pinball
court tv
bocce ball
PIZZA
stalker kid(newfriend sean)
cell phone guy
abercrombie model guys
JEFFERY
your mom
ice pops
billy and georgy
phillip
chris, matt, and alex.(lawlz... named katie prettiest girl on the beach..and boy do i have to agree..haha)
dairy queen
PICTURES
trying to swim against the current and getting hit by HUGE waves
LIGHTNING STORMS
mentos and coke
my little sister running around yelling "STALKER ZOMMGG STALKERR"
trying to find the shells that werent on the beach
my brother lying about finding amazing shells on the beach (only to realize that they were the shells i found during spring break...hahahahahahahah)
CHEEZEITS...and..WHAT THE EFF
my grandmother learning and saying your mom.
my crazy little brother constantly talking about pokemon
us looking all cute
my little sister trying to be a cheerleader
meet the fockers
HUNTER AND TANNER
army men
even more jelly beans
THE BIG FLASHLIGHT
fireworks
allison and sam freaking out every time they would see billy and georgy
and them never meeting the two boys which they named billy and georgy
allys cell phone screwing up and breaking :(
turning ally and sam into mermaids
getting a hug from hunter cause i gave him a army man..haha i think that little dude would do anything for one
me and katie laughing over the most random stupid things i would do
me and katie taking a bath in our bathing suits..(we barely fit)
PETER WENTZ
soccer guys..(hottiesss)
my new friend sean...aka stalker guy...but hes actually really nice! (and kinda cute too)
seans cousin mitch (extremely long hair..it was about as long as katies used to be..maybe longer..hahaha)

hmmm thats all i can think of right now
but it was an AMAZING trip...i had sooooooooooooooo much fun!!!!!!!!1

Okies..

Im gonna be gone next week from tomorrow (saturday) to next saturday. Im going with my family and katie is coming too!!

If you want to contact me for something my cell is 638-4355...if you need to call me i probably wont answer until about 7:30/8:00 so dont call me eariler than that cause i cant hear it ring...and im sure as hell not gonna bring it in the water...lawlz.

Ill take lots of pictures..probably mostly scenery though..ohh how i love the beach.

Truelove,
Jillian

p.s. Boston is an amazing band...its more classic rock..but classic rock is the best.

Rawr!!
There isnt anyone on tonight...im bored out of my mind...hehe i really haven't posted anything since animazement..maybe cause nothing of that significance has happened since then.

hmm soooo..my summer so far(this is not in order btw...haha)-
-went to the mall with katie, ian, and rodrigo.
-went to the pool a few times
-sleepover with katie
-cousin came to visit
-watched ouran highschool host club(which was amazing) and gundam wing.
-went to see oceans 13 with ian and sister.
-sat at my computer for at least 4 hours if not more.
-eaten at most 50 icepops (maybe less than that..lolz)
-no new friends yet T.T
-hung out with murphy, alex, robert, poof, and randy.
-Ellens mini party.
-drivers ed (which sucked)
-haircut

Whats going to happen-
-EMERALD ISLE BEACH!!!!!!!!!! July 7-14 with katie!!!(i cant wait at all!!!!)
-4th of july...i have no plans for that yet..and i would love to make some.
-i want to make some new friends(and maybe a cute boy or two ;)..)
-Watch kyou kara maou, maybe ceres, negima, and some others.
-read ouran, the rest of negima, and something else i might like.

So this summer so far has been awesome..i just hope it gets a bit more exciting.

Jack's mannequin is my latest obsession..haha

yea well school is finally pretty much over...yay!
but the summer has its ups and downs...i hope this summer will be the best ever...

yea well i know who my real friends are...they are the most amazing people and i love you all...

idk what to put today...i just know...that im doing good again..im so happy.

Animazment 07' was the highlight of my year so far!!

I had a blast, met new people, went to my first rave, got to dress up, had my picture taken 14 times by people i didnt know, and got hit on more than i ever have..haha.

I was Tohru from Fruits Basket because i match her personality pretty well and cause of my longish brown hair and body type. Her character is very sweet, shes very unselfish and cares about everyone else but herself and im kinda like that.

One of my favorite parts was meeting new people...i made 3 new friends-
Rod(one of Ian's friends), Ross, and Alex.
Ross is crazy..he hung out with me the most. he wore panties over his jeans when me and katie first met him..hahaha...yea well was hilarious.

I havent really talked to alex yet..but he was very sweet..he gave me and katie this huge hug! hes pretty cute too!!

The rave was probably my favorite part...we went around 11:30pm on saturday night...there was techno music and hundreds of glow sticks...haha it was amazing..thats where i got hit on the most...once by this kid who looked like he was in college..and i danced with him for a few minuets..and this kid who looked our age but he was kinda perverted after he said that i could have the glowstick on his belt loop if i could get it with my teeth..of course i said nahh and that i had a pink glowstick and lots more...hahaha..

the whole convention was awesome!! i had a blast!!<33